New Letter!

          Finally, the tenth letter has been published! It's called "Good-Bye..." and is the final letter in this first person's perspective. The next two letter shift things around, so the challenge is to write from another person's perspective, which is much more difficult than what I had initially thought. I've made some major progress into the eleventh letter, but it all still feels so incomplete and repetitive. Luckily for me, it's only a rough draft, but I think this rough draft won't be so useful. Still, though I'm behind my schedule (the eleventh letter, in perspective, should have been posted in November!) I'm quite glad how these past few letters have been unfolding. These will tie up everything quite nicely.

De-Loused in the Comatorium

          Why didn't I buy this album sooner?! I actually started off with Frances the Mute, followed by Meccamputecture, The Bedlam in Goliath, and lastly, Nocturniquet. Thus, I'm left with Deloused in the Comatorium and Octahedron missing my The Mars Volta collection. As it's obvious with first inquisitive statement, it's taken me so long to obtain Deloused - four albums to be exact. The Mars Volta is, by far, the band that I'm most ambivalent with. As a progressive rock band, their sounds are conventionally unconventional. By far, The Mars Volta's musical talents in Frances and Meccamputecture are my favorite, but the music in Bedlam was so esoteric and bizarre that it made me hesitant to seek out the others. I eventually got Nocturniquet, despite the Bedlam disappointment. While I still did plan to obtain Deloused and Octahedron, I had planned to buy the albums until much later. The main reason why I bought Deloused much sooner is that I noticed that this album was becoming scarce and harder to come by for some reason. So I indulged and semi-recklessly bought the LP. I'm still in the process of listening to the album, trying to gain an understanding the concept of the album as whole. Soon enough, Octahedron will be in my collection and my The Mars Volta collection will be complete.

Stepping Back

          More and more, the idea of stepping back feels like the right decision to make. I just need some time to collect myself and organize my life in a way that will make me more efficient, productive and happier. It may not be the best decision to make, but I'm willing to do so and be independent from any unnecessary responsibilities and obligations, at least for a month or two. Though, I'm pretty certain that it'll be much longer than a month or two, this first step is the most important step. This first step is what matters! What happens next is up to me to decide. What happens next is up to me to make the most of. I'm both frightened and excited by the prospect of leaving familiar territory and delve for the sake of self-discovery.

Sociology and Writing

          Trying to figure out how to approach studying for my Sociology final has been too complicated. I'll stop for now, but I need to get to it ASAP (meaning Monday). Once that one is taken care of, the rest of the semester hangs on a 15+ research paper and another, less demanding final exam. After that, I can finally put some effort into my writing, the "Dearly Beloved" series (Click here to go there!), which, once again, I have fallen behind schedule. I've already wrote a good chunk of the 10th letter, as well as planned out the 11th letter, so that should be enough to motivate me. There will, most definitely, be a final letter, which will be the 12th. While I do have the next two letter planned out, the 12th letter will be a difficult one to write out. After all, this will conclude these amorous letters, but how remains to be seen.

Finals and Confidence

This is it - it’s down to the wire. Final exams are next week, but I’m not ready nor do I feel confident about my probability of success. The lack of confidence that I have has been exasperating lately. I always second- second-guess myself. I can still remember the times in my life when when I was confident, but they are lucid, surreal at most. I wonder what could be the source of this mental malady.