Saturday, May 30, 2020

Inigo, the Exiled (and Friends)

One of the things that I started to do with friends is play Dungeons and Dragons (here is a link to a page in the official site that goes in to far more detail than what I can do on my own), at the insistence of one of my closest friends. To be honest, I was very apprehensive at trying the game, as I often struggle with the idea of role-playing and embodying a persona that can be drastically different than who I am in real life.

For instance, my character that I have created for the campaign that I'm a part of is a half-elf/half-human bard named "Inigo, the Exiled". As a traveling musician, Inigo's very much charismatic: social, very playful, lighthearted/easygoing, and at times sassy/sarcastic, in a "charming scoundrel" kinda way. Totally not me, to a great extent. So naturally, I struggle getting into this sort of headspace when it comes to acting conversation, or talking out the actions that he'd take (as opposed to what I'd do in that same situation). I don't know, for me, this is very difficult for me to perform, so I'm quite grateful that my companions are very patient and understanding as I fumble my way through the rules of the game.

Overall, playing as Inigo has been an uncomfortable (but in a good challenging way) exercise in being more outgoing and creative in a way I didn't think I thought I could be. I still need more time to find an appropriate voice for Inigo, as I feel it's just me in a costume, instead of Inigo being his own 3-dimensional character that I'd want him to be. Before now, I've never played D&D before this year, and the closest I've come to playing was with Stranger Things, and even then I didn't know what was going on. Also, I occasionally watch Critical Role to get ideas on what I can do differently for my character, as well as get ides for other characters when the time comes.

Recently, as some of my companions can't be present for every session we hold together, we've been doing these mini-campaigns that let me explore different races, classes, and backgrounds, as a means to change up gameplay without having to compromise our main campaign. I've been trying different voices (a lá voice acting), as well as trying to project different types of personalities and such to add more to variety and color to my gameplay experiences. I still feel awkward and goofy for the time being, but I'm having a good time and I'm amongst good company, so I feel like I'm in a safe enough space where I can be goofball and fail spectacularly from time to time. I think I'm going to love this D&D stuff, even if it's much more grandiose than what I could ever anticipate.

Thursday, May 28, 2020

Ad Astra (A Haiku)

 Searching for answers,


      All beyond humanity.


           Are we alone here?

Wednesday, May 27, 2020

I Can't Believe It's Still Around...

I honestly thought it got lost in the annals of the Internet...or something like that. I don't know. The point is, I can't believe my old man-journal is still around! Alright, full disclosure: I Googled myself (and no, the kids aren't calling that!). In the years since my last post in...2015(?!?!?), I may have or not have opened up accounts recklessly here and there and everywhere. Recently, I've been trying to streamline my online usage, narrowing down which websites I am active in versus those that I have started and neglected (like this one here).

I took some time to re-read some of my past writings. I don't remember why I stopped writing altogether. Maybe life just got in the way, somehow, and I just left this all behind. I dug through the analytics and people are still reading my posts (that's surprising), and apparently, through Facebook, even though I don't use FB anymore (I haven't since 2016 or so). Go figure.

Re-reading the posts that apparently got the most views really took me back a bit. I remember what I was doing in 2014, 2015. I remember where I was and where I wanted to be. Now 5 years later, I don't know if I ever got to where I wanted to be, but I definitely have had new experiences since then. Some I didn't think were possible and some were really unexpected. I was at a crossroads: do I delete this all and start over, or just not try again at all, or do I pick this blog up again, sporadically jot down my thoughts and see where it all takes me? At the very least, it could be a means for me to just take time to reflect on myself. Can't really go wrong there. I do have a hand-written journal, but what I write there is strictly for my eyes, and I don't intend to share that with anyone. So having a more public journal of sorts would be pretty interesting to try to have. So, here's to the first few years, the years in between where nothing was written down, and to the many more along way from now on. 

Cheers - D. Hipster