The Last of Us & The Zombie Survival Guide

Such an amazing game! I finished it a while back and now I'm almost done with the game a second time, on the Survivor difficulty, trying to collect everything. It's such a surprise to see how much I have missed on my second run (and I thought I was thorough my first time around). Survivor, in short, is a rage-quit festival. Be prepared to die. Like, a lot. It's a miracle I've come so far on so little (I'm at the Fireflies laboratory), and once this adventure's over, I'll probably jump over to the Wii and replay Zelda's Twilight Princess and play Skyward Sword for the first time (I can hear your exasperations already :P). 

Enduring the harrowing dangers of The Last of Us's post-apocalyptic world has got me reflecting about my physical abilities, firearms experiences, and wilderness survival training. Or rather the lack thereof. If the end of the world as we know it ended today (here's hoping it doesn't), I don't think I'd have what it takes to survive. My chances would be astronomically low. Of course, nobody can really prepare for the end of the modern world, but some chance of survival is much better than not having any at all. 

And that's where Max Brooks' The Zombie Survival Guide comes in. Half-humorous and half-serious (in my humble opinion), it provides an overview of effective combat tactics for fighting or running away from the walking dead, assessing one's environment/situation, and even providing suggestions to the most ideal weaponry/armor of any class (short-range/long-range/silent/hand-to-hand, etc.) It's quite in-depth, but not overwhelmingly so. I've been taking extensive notes (hi-lighting, underlining, and even writing) all over the book, and from all of these marks I'm making, it's helping me forge out an ideal plan of attack - my weapon of choice, what to stock up on, learning new skills (especially ones I should know by now!), and motivating me to be more shape (fear of death is a great motivator!). Reading the book and taking notes is giving me inspiration to learn more skills and try new experiences, all the while giving me some hope that I won't be the first to die. As you can see, I've been taking the book quite seriously, perhaps more than I should, but I'm not bothered by it - the note-taking process is preparing me for the upcoming school fall semester! 

                                   

This Is A Story 'Bout A Girl...

Who cried a river and drowned the whole world... [again, kudos if you got this reference :P - hey, you know what? Let me know what you thought the song was (this a hint!), but no Googling the lyrics! lol]

In all seriousness, there's a girl in my life (I know, I know - I can hear your groans already, but hear me out, will you?) and I am in love with her, or at least on the verge of being so (perhaps that would be the most accurate at this point). She is, in short, beautiful. Absolutely astounding. I find her optimistic, hopeful, generous, happy - possessing characteristics not naturally my own. She's the kind of girl who just wants to fall in love: deeply, madly in love. And she does...but with the wrong guys...

...and it's not that she makes wrong decisions or has bad taste in men...

...it's more that the men were rotten to begin with...

...and all I can do is watch...

...at a distance...

...and it hurts...

...very much so...

My heart just drowns in a sea of sorrow, dashed and tossed by torrents of silent anger, frustration. She tells us of how she was disappointed in someone, of how guys creepily hit on her, of how people look at her with signs of aberration at her reality that she's still single...and it all messes with her head. She feels like she's not worthy of love, that she's a person not made for this cruel world, and that something will almost always be wrong with her. The truth is, she is nothing like what she thinks she is.

And all this time, all I can be is her friend, her go-to guy, her impromptu confessional. But what I want to do is hold her tight and feel our hearts clash together in our chests. What I want to do is get lost in her flawless hazel eyes. What I want to do is to hold her hand innocently, make her laugh oh so richly, and have her feel appreciated, loved, and complete. I want to protect her, move mountains for her, be strong for her. This is what I want, and this is something I can't have. She keeps her distance from me, selectively choosing when to talk to me. I patiently wait for her, all the while trying to reach out to her. Time and distance threatens to tear us apart and I'm feeling frightened and nervous. 

Even before I developed feelings for her, I admired her. She spoke her mind with me, without restraint. She did her best to help others, to be a part of their daily lives, to be a positive influence to others. She tried to make the best of her situations, despite being constantly troubled by both strangers and familiar faces. She constantly smiles while holding back silent tears of frustration and hurt. 

There is so much I could say, so much I could do, but perhaps it'll never be enough. Even if nothing romantic develops between us, she's still a friend to me...and I miss talking to her on a daily basis.

In some ways, I hope that she doesn't read this and in some ways, I do hope she indeed does read this...

...but one can always hope, right?...

All Work & No Play...

...makes Sebass a dull boy!!!

But seriously, I have work literally every day this week!!! 

Today, rather yesterday (it's 7/2/2013 right now at 0041 hours - yes, I do military time! ^_^), was my first day of the lengthy week. And because I already had worked an intense 48 hours last week (that's divided into one 8-hour graveyard shift and four 10-shifts!), my body hasn't fully recovered at all. I'm used to having 

32-hour weeks, not this overtime stuff of having 6 workdays in a week. But this is just temporary, until our new guy can be completely trained to be self-sufficient at work (he's a quick learner, that new guy!). So until next week, I'm working another 48 hours this week! 

In short, this means:

1: I'm missing our on a good portion of the Anime Expo (did I say I was going?)

2: My July 4th experience is going to be cut short.

3: I won't be having sufficient time to rest.

4... 

I'm gonna be missing out on the Anime Expo!!!  

(...and I paid for the full 4-day experience too...)

I'm trying to be at peace with this, since one of our guys at work was unexpectedly fired (which is why I'm working so much - picking up the slack), so it's more like I'm getting a 2-day experience instead of the full 4-day experience. 

Once the new guy is fully trained, then everything will go back to normal :D

Until then, wish me luck!

Twitter & Instagram

I finally gave in to the masses (I know, I know - I'm such a sellout :P) and got myself a Twitter handle and an Instagram account. I've been spending the majority of today figuring out what to do - how do I introduce myself, how do I interact with other people/groups/brands/bands and the like, and how can I make myself known in the online world. I still don't know what I'm doing, but if you'd like to follow me and my shenanigans on Twitter/Instagram, click here for Twitter and here for Instagram (I'll add links at the end of this post, too).

In other news, nothing much has been happening in my life lately. Though, I have let myself get lazy and not create new vlogs for YouTube, or even write over here. Don't worry - that will change soon! I'll just need a week to make new things to talk and share about soon enough! 

As promised, here are again the links to my Twitter and Instagram accounts, in addition to my other online accounts. I'll see you guys online soon!

Twitter: @sebass_the_kidd

Instagram: dorky_hipster

YouTube: Sebass2021

Serious Writing Blog: Quiet Confessions of Sorts

I'M BACK!!!

Guess who's back? Back again? Sebass is back, Sebass is back, Sebass is back... LOL!
Kudos to you if you got the reference :D

Anyhow, after some time away from the digital world, mostly because of work and I needed some time away from my digital self, I feel ready to immerse myself back into digital world again :D

There's much to say and much to do, but I feel confident that I'll be alright at the end of the day!

Last Vlog (For a While)

As the title suggests, this will be the last vlog for a while.

Second-to-Last Vlog

Hello, how's everybody doing? Sorry for not writing sooner - nothing much has been coming my way these past few weeks, so I wasn't really driven to do much online. This here vlog is my second-to-last vlog for the time being. I've decided to stop making these temporarily to explore new avenues of filming...I hope. So, enjoy!!